Yes, a whole 19 weeks (4 1/2 months) have passed in the world of baby's and most importantly our new addition to the family 'Alana Jasmine Cantan'. What can I say about the last four months of my life? They have been some of the hardest most enjoyable and most rewarding weeks in a long time. It's like I finally have a purpose!
I was never the maternal type, I never really played with many kids. I found them annoying and bratty but having your own is different. Sometimes its just nice to go out and know that Alana's coming with me. I don't want to go back to work because Alana is more important to me and I knew thought I'd hear myself say that! hahaha.
It's made me realise that life can be unpredicable but it can be in a good way. I love seeing Alana smile when I bend over her cot or get excited when I play with her and all the sleepness nights in the world would never put me off having another but I'm deafiantly not in any hurry to start all that again! No, its time to enjoy being the same unit that we are. I want Alana to be our number 1 priorty, I don't want to rush into having another one just because one of our friends is on their 2nd. It's their choice and certainly not mine. Maybe we'll start trying when Alana's two or so but we need to move house too, we can't stay in this shoe box forever and it isn't likely to house any more kiddies because as Alana gets older I'm sure the toys will grow! lol. So when I return to full time work, I plan to save and alot of money. At least £250 a month depending on our finances. At least a £100 because thats what we're saving on our mortgage from now on.
So all I can say really is that I'm making big plans for the future!
