Okay, so this blog never appeared how I intended. Alana is now a budding, walking, talking, little person with bags of personality and an attitude to go with it. I've watched her grow from this tiny baby inside of me to a confident toddler with bags of energy and a temper to match. The quicker she grows the more I realise that soon we'll be planning her brother/sister and it's scary to think that hopefully by the end of 2010 we'll be a family of FOUR, yes FOUR!
And don't get me wrong the good times with Alana had out wayed the bad but you kind of go back to where you started with a crying, pooing, eating, machine and I'm not talking about the baby! hahaa, okay but seriously. I don't think Nick is entirely prepared for the prospect of what comes with the second child not only do we have Alana to worry about but another tiny little person and I'm worried, for obvious reasons that it will hit us all hard. I'm worrying that Alana will be upset because the baby will be in our room and she'll be in her own but I want it to be the perfect princess castle for when the baby comes, something to give her.
But then there's other considerations which obviously I've been researching. My career that hasn't exactly gone the way I intended ten years ago and then there's our housing situation. The thought of carming four people into our shoe box fills me with dread for however long Nick believes it will be. But in all honest I want to move before I give birth, I don't think starting out in such a stressful will be good on any of us. We have to be able to move first and I'm praying that a higher power will aid me in actually helping this happen. When I say higher power I mean a mortgage advisor (lol). The house prices are about to crash, or so the media tells us every morning the housing market has stalled for months and unemployment is at its highest since 1987. I'm not sure what that means in regards to our house and selling it etc. We have to move next year no matter what. I mean it has to crash 50% to affect our mortgage and so we're be in negative equity but at least we could sell and move to something better but then would the mortgage companies be willing to offer mortgages if this happens. I scared that for the next two years everything will stall and we're be stuck! Maybe we should have moved last year!
Babies was the key to this blog.
Thursday 16 October 2008
Wednesday 21 November 2007
19 weeks later...
Yes, a whole 19 weeks (4 1/2 months) have passed in the world of baby's and most importantly our new addition to the family 'Alana Jasmine Cantan'. What can I say about the last four months of my life? They have been some of the hardest most enjoyable and most rewarding weeks in a long time. It's like I finally have a purpose!
I was never the maternal type, I never really played with many kids. I found them annoying and bratty but having your own is different. Sometimes its just nice to go out and know that Alana's coming with me. I don't want to go back to work because Alana is more important to me and I knew thought I'd hear myself say that! hahaha.
It's made me realise that life can be unpredicable but it can be in a good way. I love seeing Alana smile when I bend over her cot or get excited when I play with her and all the sleepness nights in the world would never put me off having another but I'm deafiantly not in any hurry to start all that again! No, its time to enjoy being the same unit that we are. I want Alana to be our number 1 priorty, I don't want to rush into having another one just because one of our friends is on their 2nd. It's their choice and certainly not mine. Maybe we'll start trying when Alana's two or so but we need to move house too, we can't stay in this shoe box forever and it isn't likely to house any more kiddies because as Alana gets older I'm sure the toys will grow! lol. So when I return to full time work, I plan to save and alot of money. At least £250 a month depending on our finances. At least a £100 because thats what we're saving on our mortgage from now on.
So all I can say really is that I'm making big plans for the future!
I was never the maternal type, I never really played with many kids. I found them annoying and bratty but having your own is different. Sometimes its just nice to go out and know that Alana's coming with me. I don't want to go back to work because Alana is more important to me and I knew thought I'd hear myself say that! hahaha.
It's made me realise that life can be unpredicable but it can be in a good way. I love seeing Alana smile when I bend over her cot or get excited when I play with her and all the sleepness nights in the world would never put me off having another but I'm deafiantly not in any hurry to start all that again! No, its time to enjoy being the same unit that we are. I want Alana to be our number 1 priorty, I don't want to rush into having another one just because one of our friends is on their 2nd. It's their choice and certainly not mine. Maybe we'll start trying when Alana's two or so but we need to move house too, we can't stay in this shoe box forever and it isn't likely to house any more kiddies because as Alana gets older I'm sure the toys will grow! lol. So when I return to full time work, I plan to save and alot of money. At least £250 a month depending on our finances. At least a £100 because thats what we're saving on our mortgage from now on.
So all I can say really is that I'm making big plans for the future!
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